Selfish or Selfless

I am confused.

I have two sides of my life.

One side constantly tells me I’m selfish.

Because I won’t drop what I am doing

to be there for their every need.

One side constantly tells me to be selfish.

That I need to put my needs before others.

That it’s okay for me to take a day off.

That I need to grow as a person.

There are always people telling me what to do and who I am or who to be.

Yes, it’s good to hear an outside perspective.

But when will anyone ever ask me?

Ask me what I think.

I have lost myself a long time ago.

But I have always kept my heart.

Through all the pain and trauma.

I pushed through everything with love.

Do you know what I think?

I think it is amazing I still have a heart.

To be selfish or selfless…

That is the question.

Would someone who is selfish constantly think of others?

Would someone selfless wish that people did more for them?

I do both.

I am selfish enough to know what I deserve.

But I am selfless enough to know that what I do for others will always have worth.

I can be both.

My whole life I have viewed myself as a walking contradiction.

Ang, you have a heart.

You have a light.

Let it grow and let it shine.

Because God knows there needs more unconditional love in this world.